Is This You?
Sometimes it’s hard to see the wood for the trees….because your vision may be impaired…
Here are a few things I know about you…
You know, deep down in your soul that you would be an amazing mother.
You never imagined it would be THIS hard.
It’s a deep yearning and longing within you that sometimes is too painful to even admit.
You might even find yourself at times in company, denying that it’s that important to you.
Because you feel shame, guilt and embarrassment at the fact that it still hasn’t happened.
“I don’t know where to begin thanking you. I truly know in my heart that you were the catalyst. You were the final piece of my jigsaw that allowed all our other efforts to fall into place. You allowed me to completely changed my mental approach, my belief system in myself and my ability to achieve motherhood at all after the losses we had. As they say ‘What the mind believes, the body achieves’. So, thank you Universe for putting me
in touch with Claire Brett and Claire THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH FOR
Or maybe it has happened, but your baby stayed only for a while.
And you didn’t tell them…
So you’re silently grieving.
They probably wouldn’t understand.
You have a great track record for working hard in life for something in order to achieve it.
You just assumed when the right time would come, this would happen too.
And it didn’t.
Over and over again , it didn’t happen.
Even though you’ve tried what seems like EVERYTHING.
ALL. THE. THINGS!
The uncertainty is scary as hell. Feelings of failure can take your breath away sometimes.
Part of you maybe even feels like you don’t have a right to grieve because you never had the baby in your arms in the first place (only in your heart).
Anxiety and uncertainty may be your frequent companions.
Frustration, fear, isolation and guilt like to show up to this party too.
Not to mention how it affects your relationships, finances, career and quality of life.
So you paint on that smile. You daren’t let it slip.
You ‘soldier on’. Because you have to.
Because LIFE. GOES. ON.
Except yours is on pause.
You know that you would be happy if you could just have a baby.
To the outside world it might even look like you’ve got your shit remarkably together.
Inside it’s a battlefield.
I know you. I see you. That was me too.
Sometimes it felt like an endless treadmill, a runaway train and I just wanted to jump off and for the pain to stop.
But I wanted to be a mum SO BADLY.
I know you do too. And I know the pain can seem endless.